Wednesday, May 27, 2020

Back to the Future

The last time I posted to this blog was way back in the pre-Trump, pre-COVID19 era. Sometime around the end of 2014, to be exact. That post was an announcement about moving to my new (now old) website, which no longer exists. 

I happily blogged at the new site until my domain expired without my realizing it. When I tried to renew it, I found someone else had purchased it and now wanted an exorbitant amount of money to return it to me. 

Um, no.  

Fast forward a bit, and here we are, all staying at home trying to flatten the curve of this damned pandemic. It's just me and the animals here in the house, so I have a lot of time for introspection and reminiscence, and I happened to reminisce about blogging. 

On a whim, I searched up my old domain name. Apparently, I'd accidentally waited the bastard out, because was available again. I quickly snapped it up. From there it didn't take much to un-archive my old Blogger account, link it to the domain, and here I am. Now, the question is what do I blog about? 

The original premise for this blog was trying to figure out what I wanted to do with myself after leaving the non-profit I helped co-found. Then, just as I was getting started, three kids fell into my life. Hand-to-hand combat with CPS, the legal system, and immigration became my daily grind, all while changing diapers, checking homework, and trying to manage everyone's Big Feelings. It was an intense three-year adventure, but at the end of it the kids went home and I found myself right back where I started, trying to figure out what to do with myself.

I had some big goals back then. I wanted to buy a house, get published, and get myself sorted out financially. So what happened with that?

Buy a house - check. I bought my condo in 2016, and I'm still just as over-the-moon grateful today as I was on the day I signed on the dotted line and it became mine.

Get published - check (kinda). I published two flash fiction stories, so I guess technically I'm "published." But both of the novels I wrote are still in first-draft status, and still not very good. Guess I gotta keep working on this one.

Get myself sorted out financially - check (kinda). I'm able to survive with just one job now, so that's a huge plus. I'm finally in the 401K at work, which is another plus, and owning a home means I'm building equity, which is also good. But I'm still only one big car repair away from financial ruin at all times, so there is still plenty of work to be done in this category too.

Do I have any new goals in 2020? Why yes, I do. But I'll blog about those another day. 

The thought I'll leave you with for now is this: I still may not be living in the fast lane, but if I'm going slowly these days it's by choice. I'm appreciating the small things, living in the moment. I'm "doing me" in ways I couldn't when I was raising a child by myself, fighting the good fight as an activist, or being a foster parent. 

I don't know where this blog is going to go from here, but I think I'm going to take my time and just enjoy figuring it out.

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